I've never heard of this term until recently.. and also realised i fit all the symptoms.. how much lower can i go? i'm really hiding at home to avoid spending money.. haha..
oh well.. on the bright side.. i finally have a second interview request.. muz haf done something right after all... i seriously hope i get a job before the end of the year.. which is like ONE more week.
i'm sick of being broke.. i've already plans on how to spend my first paycheck.. which is not even in sight.. oh well.. bills piles up.. and there's only so much part time i can do.. lol.. i'm super dependent on tso now.. n i dun like that feeling.. reminds me of the past.. i guess i can never be those housewives who stays at home and waits for the husband to bring home the dough.. i've had a vision of a 'tai-tai' life once... i.e. before i stepped into the realistic world of working.. haven't even have much commitments and i'm finding it tough.. wait till i have my own family..
i need a job, tso needs more ppl to reno their houses.. both of us needs more money.. any kind souls out there?? It's the season of giving anyway.. be nice... weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Merry Christmas.. and happy new year.. and cat has no new year resolutions.. i'll make them up as i live my life.. who says resolutions can only be made during new year anyway.. plus.. i prefer chinese new year.. for now..
Wednesday, 23 December 2009
Tuesday, 10 November 2009
Childish Cat
juz had a stupid argument wif tso..
maybe cause i'm too free due to prolonged unemployment.. i expect him to spend more time with me.. sighz.. maybe i'm too demanding..
well, we did sort of arrange to have dinner together.. but, he got a call to play ball.. oh well.. no point rehashing everything.. but i did accuse him of putting his friends before me.. nothing wrong with that i guess.. lots of guys are liddat.. and it's just this time.. eniwei, not too healthy to meet too often.. haha.. but i did say something too sarcastic and made both of us unhappy.. the rash things i say in the moment of anger.. gotta curb that..
sometimes responses given by tso seems so non-committal, really don't know what he's thinking.. n i'm bad at second-guessing.. i'm getting too dependent on him. i think i expect too much from a r/s that's so new.. i always get the feeling that if we ever decide not to be with each other anymore, he can walk away unscathed. i know i can't. i will find it damn hard to let go.. who knows, i may start stalking him.. lol..
i care alot, but i'm afraid it will stifle him, i give in too much, i feel i'm short-changing myself. when i feel i'm short-changing myself, i think it's cause i'm too selfish.. i love him, but at times i'm so pissed with him i feel like giving up.. when i feel hurt, i say things to hurt him too.. i really don't know how to handle a r/s in a matured way.
sighs.. kinda feel better after letting it out.. sweets, i'm sorry.. n i love u...
maybe cause i'm too free due to prolonged unemployment.. i expect him to spend more time with me.. sighz.. maybe i'm too demanding..
well, we did sort of arrange to have dinner together.. but, he got a call to play ball.. oh well.. no point rehashing everything.. but i did accuse him of putting his friends before me.. nothing wrong with that i guess.. lots of guys are liddat.. and it's just this time.. eniwei, not too healthy to meet too often.. haha.. but i did say something too sarcastic and made both of us unhappy.. the rash things i say in the moment of anger.. gotta curb that..
sometimes responses given by tso seems so non-committal, really don't know what he's thinking.. n i'm bad at second-guessing.. i'm getting too dependent on him. i think i expect too much from a r/s that's so new.. i always get the feeling that if we ever decide not to be with each other anymore, he can walk away unscathed. i know i can't. i will find it damn hard to let go.. who knows, i may start stalking him.. lol..
i care alot, but i'm afraid it will stifle him, i give in too much, i feel i'm short-changing myself. when i feel i'm short-changing myself, i think it's cause i'm too selfish.. i love him, but at times i'm so pissed with him i feel like giving up.. when i feel hurt, i say things to hurt him too.. i really don't know how to handle a r/s in a matured way.
sighs.. kinda feel better after letting it out.. sweets, i'm sorry.. n i love u...
Insomnia
Been trying to sleep for the past hour.. but sleep is elusive... once my head hits the pillow, i start thinking of too many things.. esp my lack of income.. haha..
i really really want that job from Safra, but, as the days go by, the chances are diminishing more.. i managed to keep myself awake thinking of all the things i can try to do to give myself a higher chance.. brain juices are working.. haha..
Sunday was TSO's b-dae, and, except for a card that i made myself, (i have to profess, it's an ugly card.. Cat failed her art..) i am not able to get him a gift.. and though he says it's ok, i feel bad. real bad. so many things i wanted to get TSO.. yet nothing could be done due to my sad state of finance..
i feel like i'm sinking into depression.. it's coming to 3 months of a jobless Cat.. it sux.. not that i was ever rich to begin with, but at least i could support myself and still give my parents money.. i'm coming to the point where i might need to ask them for money. Can u believe that??!! farkin 25 yrs old, and still need to ask parents for money..
i remember when i was in sec 3, which was exactly 10 years ago, one of my teachers asked us to do a 5 year and 10 year plan of our life. I was so full of dreams then.. My 10 year plan was to be a successful lawyer, and possibly get married. I wanted to have kids by 30. I still do.
But after growing up, seeing more of the society and the reality of life, I seriously doubt my ability to be able to start a family, much less have kids.. I can't even afford to keep myself alive.. haha.. farkin 25 and still depending on my parents for help.. what kind of person am i?? useless that is..
Was thinking to myself this aftnn, wat's my goal in life?? my mind drew a blank. i have no aim in life. just living day by day, wasting my youth away.. no.. wait.. my youth has already been wasted.. 25, not young anymore.. when i was 20, 25 seemed such a long time away, and ppl who are 25 seemed so old to me.. I had big dreams for myself when i reached 25, but still, nothing has come about except for failed relationships, lousy grades in school, and either in a sucky job or jobless..
when am i ever gonna be successful and make something out of my own life for myself? i feel inferior even in front of my friends and relatives.. wtf is wrong wif this cat??
too much coffee made me sleepless.. now i know i can't drink coffee at night anymore.. tried and tested.. haha..
i really really want that job from Safra, but, as the days go by, the chances are diminishing more.. i managed to keep myself awake thinking of all the things i can try to do to give myself a higher chance.. brain juices are working.. haha..
Sunday was TSO's b-dae, and, except for a card that i made myself, (i have to profess, it's an ugly card.. Cat failed her art..) i am not able to get him a gift.. and though he says it's ok, i feel bad. real bad. so many things i wanted to get TSO.. yet nothing could be done due to my sad state of finance..
i feel like i'm sinking into depression.. it's coming to 3 months of a jobless Cat.. it sux.. not that i was ever rich to begin with, but at least i could support myself and still give my parents money.. i'm coming to the point where i might need to ask them for money. Can u believe that??!! farkin 25 yrs old, and still need to ask parents for money..
i remember when i was in sec 3, which was exactly 10 years ago, one of my teachers asked us to do a 5 year and 10 year plan of our life. I was so full of dreams then.. My 10 year plan was to be a successful lawyer, and possibly get married. I wanted to have kids by 30. I still do.
But after growing up, seeing more of the society and the reality of life, I seriously doubt my ability to be able to start a family, much less have kids.. I can't even afford to keep myself alive.. haha.. farkin 25 and still depending on my parents for help.. what kind of person am i?? useless that is..
Was thinking to myself this aftnn, wat's my goal in life?? my mind drew a blank. i have no aim in life. just living day by day, wasting my youth away.. no.. wait.. my youth has already been wasted.. 25, not young anymore.. when i was 20, 25 seemed such a long time away, and ppl who are 25 seemed so old to me.. I had big dreams for myself when i reached 25, but still, nothing has come about except for failed relationships, lousy grades in school, and either in a sucky job or jobless..
when am i ever gonna be successful and make something out of my own life for myself? i feel inferior even in front of my friends and relatives.. wtf is wrong wif this cat??
too much coffee made me sleepless.. now i know i can't drink coffee at night anymore.. tried and tested.. haha..
Sunday, 8 November 2009
Eureka...
Kenna bluff back for a family day at zoo on sat. originally had no intention to go at all when HJ asked me..
but i still can't out-maneuver them. They got Bryan to call me. sigh.. really dunno how to say no to them.. think they're damn good at using ppl. keep asking me to go back and help, and then say it's good to have me, blah blah blah.. then y didn't they pay me more to stay.. figured they'll try to get me back to help a few more times, then once their new coordinators more 'zai', they won't be bothered about me anymore.
sigh.. wat the heck.. i'm watching tv and looking at a snickers advert.. n now i got a craving for snickers bar.... it's been damn long since i last had one.. lol..
job job job.... where are u??
but i still can't out-maneuver them. They got Bryan to call me. sigh.. really dunno how to say no to them.. think they're damn good at using ppl. keep asking me to go back and help, and then say it's good to have me, blah blah blah.. then y didn't they pay me more to stay.. figured they'll try to get me back to help a few more times, then once their new coordinators more 'zai', they won't be bothered about me anymore.
sigh.. wat the heck.. i'm watching tv and looking at a snickers advert.. n now i got a craving for snickers bar.... it's been damn long since i last had one.. lol..
job job job.... where are u??
Sunday, 25 October 2009
Amore Women's Day Out 2010
been helping Eureka! the pas couple of days with their event.. cat was a roadshow sales promoter one day, and balloon twister the next.. haha..
Amore Women's Day Out 2010. Anyone interested to join?
6th March 2010, Saturday. Ngee Ann City Civic Plaza
I would also like to mention at this point, sign up and get a goodie bag on that day worth a total value of $250!!
For more information, please visit the website at www.womensdayout.sg
Amore Women's Day Out 2010. Anyone interested to join?
6th March 2010, Saturday. Ngee Ann City Civic Plaza
| 1. | Power of 2 Time: 9am - 9.30am Power up your bonding time with your kids! The workout combines high-low impact aerobics with cool moves of Kick-boxing.. This total body workout, comprising jumps, kicks and punches, will tone and improve muscle strength, as well as overall co-ordination and reflexes. So, sweat it out with your kids in this exhilarating activity that will have mom and child reaping benefits in a fun-filled way. |
| 2. | Experience Fitness + BellyBlitz® Trial Time: 10am – 11.30pm Experience Fitness introduces various exercise techniques and workouts routines through three fun-filled 20-minute segments consisting of Hi-Lo Impact Aerobics, Kick-boxing and StretchFit®, with as well as a free BellyBlitz® trial. |
| 3. | Tri-Power Challenge Time: 12pm - 3.00pm Workout your way to cash and attractive prizes in three 50-minute segments in the Tri-Power Challenge(CardioLatino®, Hi-Lo Impact aerobics and Kick-boxing). Gear up for the challenge today! and if you are one of the top 10 most coordinated participants, you will win for yourself $200 cash, and products worth $500! |
| 4. | Dance Beat Time: 4pm – 6.00pm Want a workout that allows you to groove in style at the same time? Dance Beat offers two 50-minute dance segments consisting of FunkBlitz® and Bolly Blitz™. FunkBlitz® incorporates hip hop, street and funk dance, while BollyBlitz™ infuses bhangra-inspired moves with hip hop. Come learn the hot steps with this programme. |
| 5. | Body.Mind.Soul Time: 7pm - 8.30pm If you are seeking mental and physical stress relief, you will enjoy this two rejuvenating 45 minutes sessions of outdoor yoga and StretchFit® in the cool evening breeze. |
I would also like to mention at this point, sign up and get a goodie bag on that day worth a total value of $250!!
For more information, please visit the website at www.womensdayout.sg
Thursday, 22 October 2009
My First Time
haha.. Bought myself clothing online for the first time in my life.. haha.. Let's hope it fits, or the first time will also be the last time.
玩自闭一个月了，就快疯了。。没钱后果就是如此。
经常替旧公司做兼职，算是算取一些零用钱吧。
真要径快找到一份全职，否则就快得宣布破产了。。 呵呵。
而且也快闷死了。。
玩自闭一个月了，就快疯了。。没钱后果就是如此。
经常替旧公司做兼职，算是算取一些零用钱吧。
真要径快找到一份全职，否则就快得宣布破产了。。 呵呵。
而且也快闷死了。。
Friday, 16 October 2009
Our First Photo
Was looking at some past photos, and I realised TSO and my 1st photo goes way back to April. The One's birthday... lol.. Well, we did see each other there, but no words were ever exchanged, at least not directly, or any that I remember.. haha.. we didn't even know each other, and we didn't even know each other's name.Yet, there actually were a few pictures of us taken 'together'.
Hehe.. yet, it's still due to michelle that we got to know each other and am together now..
Wednesday, 30 September 2009
Just another grouse
Funny.. wanted to blog, but when i am at the page, i have nothing to write.. My life is that boring now.. All that revolves around me now is, where the heck am i gonna find enough money to survive till i get a job.. and.. when the heck am i gonna find a job??
又不是我不要作工。。
也不是没努力地找。。
能做的都作了。不懂我到底出了什么问题。。
一生什么成就都没有，拿了个大学文凭，有个屁用。
都不知道人活在这世上是为了什么。
难道真的是象我爸在我13岁时跟我说的那样，‘人生下来就是长大、上学、出去社会工作、找个伴侣、结婚、生子、继续做工、把孩子养大成人、老了、等死。’
似乎毫无意义的人生。
hmm.. i realise i have a very pessimistic outlook on life.. sighz..
又不是我不要作工。。
也不是没努力地找。。
能做的都作了。不懂我到底出了什么问题。。
一生什么成就都没有，拿了个大学文凭，有个屁用。
都不知道人活在这世上是为了什么。
难道真的是象我爸在我13岁时跟我说的那样，‘人生下来就是长大、上学、出去社会工作、找个伴侣、结婚、生子、继续做工、把孩子养大成人、老了、等死。’
似乎毫无意义的人生。
hmm.. i realise i have a very pessimistic outlook on life.. sighz..
Saturday, 26 September 2009
25 yrs and 1 day old
小猫长大咯！！
与安仔度过了生日的那一天。虽然并没什么盛大的庆祝，但，平平淡淡的在一起，陪伴着对方，就算是在享受二人世界吧！感觉也蛮温馨的。。
他其实也有准备了一些小小的惊喜给我。订了一束玫瑰花，并叫人送来我家，还写了一张生日卡，和礼物。虽然这些对很多女生来说，或许是基本条件，对我而言，已撮撮有余。恋爱嘛。。也不想做到电影剧情里那么惊天动地。两人在一起，最重要是感觉舒服，体谅对方。 我才不要在那种平日就吵吵闹闹，或不理不睬的感情，只有到了特别日子才来做戏给对方，给朋友看。
我想我的要求还算简单。。我只需要对方记得我的生日，做一个小小的表现，例如，一个小小的礼物，甚至只是两人一起简简单单的吃一顿晚餐，我也会满促了。。就重要是知道你在他心里是重要，而他是重视你的。
这只猫也算经历了几段感情，当中获益不潜。。只希望不会重蹈覆辙，不再犯以前所犯过的错误。。我不会搞浪漫，也不会说甜言蜜语。我深信，真正的浪漫，是发自内心的。你会为了要对方开心而做，看到他/她灿烂的笑容，就会知道一切都是值得的。。
安仔，谢谢。我昨晚是笑着入眠的。。
与安仔度过了生日的那一天。虽然并没什么盛大的庆祝，但，平平淡淡的在一起，陪伴着对方，就算是在享受二人世界吧！感觉也蛮温馨的。。
他其实也有准备了一些小小的惊喜给我。订了一束玫瑰花，并叫人送来我家，还写了一张生日卡，和礼物。虽然这些对很多女生来说，或许是基本条件，对我而言，已撮撮有余。恋爱嘛。。也不想做到电影剧情里那么惊天动地。两人在一起，最重要是感觉舒服，体谅对方。 我才不要在那种平日就吵吵闹闹，或不理不睬的感情，只有到了特别日子才来做戏给对方，给朋友看。
我想我的要求还算简单。。我只需要对方记得我的生日，做一个小小的表现，例如，一个小小的礼物，甚至只是两人一起简简单单的吃一顿晚餐，我也会满促了。。就重要是知道你在他心里是重要，而他是重视你的。
这只猫也算经历了几段感情，当中获益不潜。。只希望不会重蹈覆辙，不再犯以前所犯过的错误。。我不会搞浪漫，也不会说甜言蜜语。我深信，真正的浪漫，是发自内心的。你会为了要对方开心而做，看到他/她灿烂的笑容，就会知道一切都是值得的。。
安仔，谢谢。我昨晚是笑着入眠的。。
Thursday, 24 September 2009
Too bored..
Cat is too bored.. way too bored.. she needs a job like NOW!!
but.. since i'm so bored.. i decided to make a list of how mean my bf is to me.. hahahahha....
actually, i know he dotes on me in his own way.. but dunno wat's wrong with me.. i always feel insecure.. i think i lack confidence in relationships.. n the bad thing is, my insecurity kinds of spills over to him too.. i'm also afraid that i will start to take things for granted, and take him for granted..
hmm... wat should i do with my life?? aimless....
but.. since i'm so bored.. i decided to make a list of how mean my bf is to me.. hahahahha....
- he's damn good at acting deaf.... esp when it comes to things he doesn't want to commit..
- he's more stubborn than me... i can't win him in arguments.... *dammit*.. smtimes i juz wanna win for the sake of winning.. he juz won't give in.. irritating......
- he ain't good at the romantic stuff.. eniwei.. i ain't good at it too.. thank god i'm not very for those extreme romance thingy..
- he often don't bother to inform me of his whereabouts.. not caring if i will feel worried or not.. sigh...
- can't think of anymore for now.. hahahhaha
actually, i know he dotes on me in his own way.. but dunno wat's wrong with me.. i always feel insecure.. i think i lack confidence in relationships.. n the bad thing is, my insecurity kinds of spills over to him too.. i'm also afraid that i will start to take things for granted, and take him for granted..
hmm... wat should i do with my life?? aimless....
Tuesday, 22 September 2009
Healthy Lifestyle
Thanks Michelle. I stole the pic from ur blog.. hee..Been leading a healthy lifestyle the past 2 weekends.. haha.. played badminton last week wif TSO, Michelle and TL.. went again yst with TSO, my Dai Gor and his GF.. haha.. Feeling the ache on my right side now.. I have no idea why is it that everytime I play badminton, only my right side of the body will ache.. I mean the whole of my right side, right from my shoulders to my leg.. I think my right side o my body is gonna be more toned than my left..
Just a side note, I'm turning 25 soon.. i feel so upset with myself.. 25 and 一事无成.. i've lived a quarter of a century with nothing to my name but failed relationships, lousy jobs, one bad decision after another..
Sigh.. but thank god for small doses of luck at times too.. I also have a bunch of great friends, a 'loving' family (well.. if sacarsm towards each other is a form of love), and I finally found a great guy.. Let's hope he remains great.. hahahaha..
All I want for my birthday is a job.. not juz any job.. the JOB.. at YOG.. haha... make it my birthday present!!!
Friday, 18 September 2009
Cat the Manpower
Was working part time wif Eureka as mpw the past couple of days at an HPB event.. good thing was, i know most of wat i'm doing. bad thing is, i'm getting manpower pay and doing coordinator job.. lol... n i think the new staff not v happy coz i'm a manpower, and i'm actually telling them wat to do... hahahhaha.... i wouldn't be happy if i were them too... but at this point, this manpower is still gonna be more 'qiang' than a newcomer who hasn't even been there more than a month...
haha.. anyway, event was at SGH, to promote healthy living to children. so a few different schools signed up and brought their students here.. on the second day, a boy from one of the schools, proposed to me.. lol...
he's 12 years old, and has mild Down's Syndrome. Kept giving me 'flying kisses', and i ignored him most of the time, but when he had a chance to talk to me, he asked me, 'Can I marry you?'...... All the ppl who knew had a good laugh at my expense lor....
But, that brings to another point, kind of spoke to the teacher (who was quite hot, i like the shape of his back), and he mentioned that it's not a good behaviour for people with DS (Down's Syndrome) as it is a behaviour of extreme obsession.. and as they don't have a clear idea of what is right and wrong, they tend to express themselves without control or limit. for e.g. they will just lift up a girl's skirt and see what's underneath in public coz they'll feel that it's ok, and they want to satisfy their own curiousity.
i can understand, i only encounter him for the 2.5 hrs that they're there, wat if it's someone he has more daily contact with.. it will make him worse i feel...
on a totally different note, Cat went for interview for YOG.. I seriously hope i get the job.... it'll be something i'm good at, event coordination.. and com'on, it's for YOG... how many ppl gonna haf a chance to do it.. juz think about it.. Singapore will nvr haf a chance to hold the Olympic Games, we're juz too small a little piece of grass to be able to hold so many ppl who will be coming.. if we do hold it, the govt probably will have to ask half the citizens to go overseas while the foreigners come and rent our houses for that couple of weeks.. lol..
anyway, back on track, YOG is probably the closest thing to Olympics that we can do.. sigh.. i need a freakin job... if YOG dun wan me, i MAY go for Outward Bound School... i cannot juz sit in office whole day that kind.. i feel very lethargic.... sighz.. but active jobs that requires u to run around = low pay OR sales job. i'm not that suitable for sales, so, it'll be low pay.. lol...
I know.. who wants a cute Chauffeur who can drive quite well?? i'm available..
haha.. anyway, event was at SGH, to promote healthy living to children. so a few different schools signed up and brought their students here.. on the second day, a boy from one of the schools, proposed to me.. lol...
he's 12 years old, and has mild Down's Syndrome. Kept giving me 'flying kisses', and i ignored him most of the time, but when he had a chance to talk to me, he asked me, 'Can I marry you?'...... All the ppl who knew had a good laugh at my expense lor....
But, that brings to another point, kind of spoke to the teacher (who was quite hot, i like the shape of his back), and he mentioned that it's not a good behaviour for people with DS (Down's Syndrome) as it is a behaviour of extreme obsession.. and as they don't have a clear idea of what is right and wrong, they tend to express themselves without control or limit. for e.g. they will just lift up a girl's skirt and see what's underneath in public coz they'll feel that it's ok, and they want to satisfy their own curiousity.
i can understand, i only encounter him for the 2.5 hrs that they're there, wat if it's someone he has more daily contact with.. it will make him worse i feel...
on a totally different note, Cat went for interview for YOG.. I seriously hope i get the job.... it'll be something i'm good at, event coordination.. and com'on, it's for YOG... how many ppl gonna haf a chance to do it.. juz think about it.. Singapore will nvr haf a chance to hold the Olympic Games, we're juz too small a little piece of grass to be able to hold so many ppl who will be coming.. if we do hold it, the govt probably will have to ask half the citizens to go overseas while the foreigners come and rent our houses for that couple of weeks.. lol..
anyway, back on track, YOG is probably the closest thing to Olympics that we can do.. sigh.. i need a freakin job... if YOG dun wan me, i MAY go for Outward Bound School... i cannot juz sit in office whole day that kind.. i feel very lethargic.... sighz.. but active jobs that requires u to run around = low pay OR sales job. i'm not that suitable for sales, so, it'll be low pay.. lol...
I know.. who wants a cute Chauffeur who can drive quite well?? i'm available..
Wednesday, 9 September 2009
How.. I'm Still Jobless
sigh.. been almost a month since i left eureka.. still looking for a job... desperate to the point that i'm being a manpower for the pittance of a sum that eureka pays.. lol..
anyway, played Cashflow game with TSO, Michele & Mike last weekend.. cat was an engineer.. and she couldn't get out of the rat race.. i sincerely hope it's not a reflection of life.. hahahaha.. but, i can count on TSO.. hahahah... he won the game!! actually, Cashflow is a fun game.. dun mind playing a few more times.. but takes a long time to play.. about 2-3 hours.. but.. since mich spent $300 on it, i shall endeavour to make it worth her money..
1st things 1st, i need to get a job... im dying of boredom, and soon i'll die of starvation.. coz i ain't got money..
happened to talk to dave online today.. he asked me if i wanted to work for him.. should i? not that i have anymore feelings for him.. but.. 'duo yi shi bu ru shao yi shi'.. should juz avoid any possibility of misunderstandings rite? anyway, i'll think damn hard, coz his job is on commission basis.. imagine i got no sales.. i eat air for that month...
SHOW ME THE MONEY!!! hahahahha
anyway, played Cashflow game with TSO, Michele & Mike last weekend.. cat was an engineer.. and she couldn't get out of the rat race.. i sincerely hope it's not a reflection of life.. hahahaha.. but, i can count on TSO.. hahahah... he won the game!! actually, Cashflow is a fun game.. dun mind playing a few more times.. but takes a long time to play.. about 2-3 hours.. but.. since mich spent $300 on it, i shall endeavour to make it worth her money..
1st things 1st, i need to get a job... im dying of boredom, and soon i'll die of starvation.. coz i ain't got money..
happened to talk to dave online today.. he asked me if i wanted to work for him.. should i? not that i have anymore feelings for him.. but.. 'duo yi shi bu ru shao yi shi'.. should juz avoid any possibility of misunderstandings rite? anyway, i'll think damn hard, coz his job is on commission basis.. imagine i got no sales.. i eat air for that month...
SHOW ME THE MONEY!!! hahahahha
Tuesday, 8 September 2009
all about cats and pigs..
hmmz... together wif TSO for a month plus.. of coz, we're still happily in the honeymoon period, but of coz there are some differences already..
hmm.. we both are super stubborn ppl.. n most times we refuse to budge from our stance.. guess who has to give in to the other in the end?
In a r/s, there must always be a balance.. i realised that in my previous 2 r/s, there wasn't any balance at all.. the first one, i was the one who always gives in, letting myself get bullied, and in the 2nd one, it was the other way round.. i seriously hope i will learn from both rs and learn to strike a balance with this relationship.. give and take..
Plus we both have very different ways of thinking, and ways of handling things.. it really added to alot of problems.. he'd rather drop a subject and not talk about it anymore if we can't see things in the same light, but my style is to talk about it so that we know each other's point of view.. I would like him to understand where i'm coming from, and why i think that way.. of coz.. smtimes it's not possible to explain cos this cat does like to do illogical things at times.. but TSO is a super logical person and he isn't able to understand why i will do things so out of the norm.. actually, sometimes i also dunno.. hahaha..
other than that, i'm perfectly happy in this relationship.. I remember ever telling michelle (our matchmaker) this:
"Yong an is a guy i can fall in love with."
Guess wat.. The statement has come true..
Watched the movie 'Hitch' by Will Smith last time.. there was one quote in the movie that I couldn't forget. Will Smith was teaching the guy how to kiss a girl properly, and the statement he made was something like:
"Remember, this could be her last first kiss."
I think it's damn meaningful.. and I hope I have given my last first kiss to TSO.
Yup. I love him and i'm proud to admit it..
hmm.. we both are super stubborn ppl.. n most times we refuse to budge from our stance.. guess who has to give in to the other in the end?
In a r/s, there must always be a balance.. i realised that in my previous 2 r/s, there wasn't any balance at all.. the first one, i was the one who always gives in, letting myself get bullied, and in the 2nd one, it was the other way round.. i seriously hope i will learn from both rs and learn to strike a balance with this relationship.. give and take..
Plus we both have very different ways of thinking, and ways of handling things.. it really added to alot of problems.. he'd rather drop a subject and not talk about it anymore if we can't see things in the same light, but my style is to talk about it so that we know each other's point of view.. I would like him to understand where i'm coming from, and why i think that way.. of coz.. smtimes it's not possible to explain cos this cat does like to do illogical things at times.. but TSO is a super logical person and he isn't able to understand why i will do things so out of the norm.. actually, sometimes i also dunno.. hahaha..
other than that, i'm perfectly happy in this relationship.. I remember ever telling michelle (our matchmaker) this:
"Yong an is a guy i can fall in love with."
Guess wat.. The statement has come true..
Watched the movie 'Hitch' by Will Smith last time.. there was one quote in the movie that I couldn't forget. Will Smith was teaching the guy how to kiss a girl properly, and the statement he made was something like:
"Remember, this could be her last first kiss."
I think it's damn meaningful.. and I hope I have given my last first kiss to TSO.
Yup. I love him and i'm proud to admit it..
Friday, 4 September 2009
Cat's Personality
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. (can't be.. i hated lessons)The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you. (yup.. esp financial freedom)Who is your true self:
You are mature (sure not??), reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.Tuesday, 1 September 2009
Bored
Sigh.. this cat needs a job badly.. 3rd week into slacking and i'm feeling bored like nothing.. i think i'm destined for a slogging life.. haha.. let me nua for awhile n i start feeling all sorts of sickness and stuff.. in the short 2 weeks, cat has suffered from insomnia twice.. never happened when i was working...
Now that my bro is back, I haf no more car.. sigh.. cat is back to the life of being car-less.. haha.. thus cat is stuck at home today.. and the rain.. sighz.. should haf juz rained last nite.. sigh... now cat looks forward to the weekends only coz my frens will not be working, so i can happily go out wif them.. hahaha...
rained on sun.. wanted to go beach.. in the end, we spent a couple of hours at tangs vivo tryin to use up michelle's vouchers, cat 'bought' a pair of socks.. haha.. but i had a good weekend la.. sat was abit of slacking with the bf.. then went to watch Mayday Concert which lasted well after midnight.. then went to find TSO and watched soccer with him n his fren.. haha.. too free.. lol.. got hm, slept, woke up, started raining, so went to pick TSO, Mich, BX and Rowena up... thus the shopping.. then went singing, eat, and home.. haha..
had some worrying thoughts on and off.. but, well.. what will come will come.. now.. juz gonna continue slacking, and maybe a movie wif TSO tonight.. hehe..
cat has no life.. to the point she has nothing to blog about.. hahaha
Now that my bro is back, I haf no more car.. sigh.. cat is back to the life of being car-less.. haha.. thus cat is stuck at home today.. and the rain.. sighz.. should haf juz rained last nite.. sigh... now cat looks forward to the weekends only coz my frens will not be working, so i can happily go out wif them.. hahaha...
rained on sun.. wanted to go beach.. in the end, we spent a couple of hours at tangs vivo tryin to use up michelle's vouchers, cat 'bought' a pair of socks.. haha.. but i had a good weekend la.. sat was abit of slacking with the bf.. then went to watch Mayday Concert which lasted well after midnight.. then went to find TSO and watched soccer with him n his fren.. haha.. too free.. lol.. got hm, slept, woke up, started raining, so went to pick TSO, Mich, BX and Rowena up... thus the shopping.. then went singing, eat, and home.. haha..
had some worrying thoughts on and off.. but, well.. what will come will come.. now.. juz gonna continue slacking, and maybe a movie wif TSO tonight.. hehe..
cat has no life.. to the point she has nothing to blog about.. hahaha
Saturday, 29 August 2009
Little Things Cat Feels
being too free gives me too much time to think.. been thinking about a few things the past few days.. came to a few conclusions, but haven't thought of what my next step should be..
was telling TSO last nite, (though he didn't seem very interested), I feel that all my life, i've been very sheltered, and i've never had the feeling that i'm all alone.. no matter what, when, where or how, I've always have the security that my parents, friends, relatives, etc will always be behind me to support me.. I dunno if it's a good or bad thing, but, right now, I feel it's not v good for me.. I've never ever had the desperation to do something, or ever had the feeling of like, 'it's a do or die thing'. I mean, i'll still give 100% , but there's nothing to push me to do 110% or more..
n maybe, i'm too easy going, to the point that even for my own life, i allow it to be easy-going.. jobs, boyfriends, how ppl treat me.. I don't mind being the one at a disadvantage, as long as i don't owe ppl, n i can answer to my own 'liang xin', good enuff for me...
I'm too
actually, it's coz i'm damn shy, and i seriously dunno how to make small talk.. if i knew how to, i'd be a damn good salesperson.. n plus, i'm 'cursed/blessed' with this forever youthful face.. how the heck will ppl take me seriously when i still look 16????
sighz.. enuff grousing for today.. gonna watch MAYDAY concert tonight!!! after months and months of waiting.. finally!!!
was telling TSO last nite, (though he didn't seem very interested), I feel that all my life, i've been very sheltered, and i've never had the feeling that i'm all alone.. no matter what, when, where or how, I've always have the security that my parents, friends, relatives, etc will always be behind me to support me.. I dunno if it's a good or bad thing, but, right now, I feel it's not v good for me.. I've never ever had the desperation to do something, or ever had the feeling of like, 'it's a do or die thing'. I mean, i'll still give 100% , but there's nothing to push me to do 110% or more..
n maybe, i'm too easy going, to the point that even for my own life, i allow it to be easy-going.. jobs, boyfriends, how ppl treat me.. I don't mind being the one at a disadvantage, as long as i don't owe ppl, n i can answer to my own 'liang xin', good enuff for me...
I'm too
- indecisive
- stubborn
- impatient (i love doing things that gives me instant gratification, i.e. i can see immediate results)
- bad-tempered
- immatured
- dependent on other ppl
actually, it's coz i'm damn shy, and i seriously dunno how to make small talk.. if i knew how to, i'd be a damn good salesperson.. n plus, i'm 'cursed/blessed' with this forever youthful face.. how the heck will ppl take me seriously when i still look 16????
sighz.. enuff grousing for today.. gonna watch MAYDAY concert tonight!!! after months and months of waiting.. finally!!!
Monday, 24 August 2009
Cat with a new lease on life!!
Morbid title.. lol..
Went to court to do mediation wif BFL today.. hmm.. me thinks he's good at gaining sympathy.. all i could do was sit there and shake head.. can't even be bothered to defend myself anymore.. anyway, all i was after was one thing, and to reach the end, the means doesn't really matter. makes me look bad, but who cares.. not that i'm gonna see those ppl again..
but it was rather disconcerting seeing him.. thank god TSO was there wif me.. but there was a point when we were waiting that it was only me and BFL.. and he kept giving the psycho face.. rather scary though.. thank god again for mobile devices like handphones.. lol.. and for all the frens i could sms.. haha.. let's juz hope he sticks to the agreement.. so many things i could've told the mediators that will make him look damn bad.. but, i didn't.. TSO asked me why i didn't juz say.. actually, i just can't be bothered.. what's the point of rehashing those things again and again.. so tiring.. i got my point, he got his points, if we both get long-winded about it, i have no idea how long the whole bloody thing will take.. all i wanted was to get it over and done with.. unlike some ppl, i do have a life to live..
in fact, this whole incident is ridiculous to begin wif.. it's juz a frickin breakup.. why must detoriate into a mediation session wif total strangers.. talk? wat's there to talk? over is over, i've told u so many times, u can't accept, you're not listening, then wat for i keep saying?? cheyz..
eniwei.. tmr will be a brighter day for Cat.. hehe.. now all i want is to forget as many things as possible. Move on cat, Move on..
Went to court to do mediation wif BFL today.. hmm.. me thinks he's good at gaining sympathy.. all i could do was sit there and shake head.. can't even be bothered to defend myself anymore.. anyway, all i was after was one thing, and to reach the end, the means doesn't really matter. makes me look bad, but who cares.. not that i'm gonna see those ppl again..
but it was rather disconcerting seeing him.. thank god TSO was there wif me.. but there was a point when we were waiting that it was only me and BFL.. and he kept giving the psycho face.. rather scary though.. thank god again for mobile devices like handphones.. lol.. and for all the frens i could sms.. haha.. let's juz hope he sticks to the agreement.. so many things i could've told the mediators that will make him look damn bad.. but, i didn't.. TSO asked me why i didn't juz say.. actually, i just can't be bothered.. what's the point of rehashing those things again and again.. so tiring.. i got my point, he got his points, if we both get long-winded about it, i have no idea how long the whole bloody thing will take.. all i wanted was to get it over and done with.. unlike some ppl, i do have a life to live..
in fact, this whole incident is ridiculous to begin wif.. it's juz a frickin breakup.. why must detoriate into a mediation session wif total strangers.. talk? wat's there to talk? over is over, i've told u so many times, u can't accept, you're not listening, then wat for i keep saying?? cheyz..
eniwei.. tmr will be a brighter day for Cat.. hehe.. now all i want is to forget as many things as possible. Move on cat, Move on..
Sunday, 23 August 2009
Cat the Slack
Sigh.. not working really makes one super 'nua'.. and the worst thing is, i need to get a job... somehow someway, money is flowing out and i have no income in the foreseeable future..
court day tmr.. a question that has been bugging me for the longest time is, what to wear?? I think i'm making myself think of stupid things like that just so I won't be so bothered about the heart of the issue.. i'm actually kinda nervous and worried.. fear of the unknown again.. all i know about court is what i've seen on TV and heard from others.. even the hearing from others part is so little.. i totally have no idea what to expect.. at least i'm the plaintiff.. but question still remains.. what the heck should i wear??? can i google this type of things?? oh man.. how did the neantherdals survive in the past? not only no such things as google.. not even TV or Radio..
hmmm... actually, i'm waiting for TSO, Cia and Mich to come over and swim. The SUPPOSED time is 11.00am.. but my guess is, they'll all be late.. that's y i'm still happily slacking on my bed.. lol..
SLACKERS OF THE WORLD UNITE!!! (unite later can?? i'm still slacking..)
court day tmr.. a question that has been bugging me for the longest time is, what to wear?? I think i'm making myself think of stupid things like that just so I won't be so bothered about the heart of the issue.. i'm actually kinda nervous and worried.. fear of the unknown again.. all i know about court is what i've seen on TV and heard from others.. even the hearing from others part is so little.. i totally have no idea what to expect.. at least i'm the plaintiff.. but question still remains.. what the heck should i wear??? can i google this type of things?? oh man.. how did the neantherdals survive in the past? not only no such things as google.. not even TV or Radio..
hmmm... actually, i'm waiting for TSO, Cia and Mich to come over and swim. The SUPPOSED time is 11.00am.. but my guess is, they'll all be late.. that's y i'm still happily slacking on my bed.. lol..
SLACKERS OF THE WORLD UNITE!!! (unite later can?? i'm still slacking..)
Thursday, 20 August 2009
Jobless Cat
This cat is jobless as of 19th Aug. Now I am an Ex-Eurekian.. lol.. Coincidently, I started work in Eureka on 18th Feb 2008, and my last day was 18th Aug 2009. Exactly 18 months. wow.. time flew.. i still rem how I felt when I first started work.. bumbling idiot who don't know what to do and have totally no inkling on office etiquette etc.. Not that i very 'zai' now, but most of the time, i actually know what i'm doing.. haha..
Hell week was last week, and juz as i predicted, i really did not meet TSO for the whole week till Sat morn.. what a week... there wasn't a day that i left office before 12 midnight.. tues at 12-ish, wed 1-ish, thurs 3am, fri 1-ish, sat also 12-ish.. and SUNDAY!!! whoa.. D-Day.. i'm so glad it's all over.. and the best thing is, on tues, i still had no idea when my last day was, and after the office accountant checked with the Boss, suddenly, my last day was that day.. WTF lo... didn't even haf time to pack up and handover things properly... sighz...
18 months in Eureka.. so many ppl came and left.. I've seen ppl who work for one day, and not turn up the next day, sigh.. the bosses should be more appreciative of the ppl who are willing to stay on for so long.. lol... i rem during my fifth month in the company, me and an intern was calculating the ppl who have came and left.. It added up to an average turnover of 3 pax per month.. i've seriously lost count of the ppl who worked less than a month.. why i wonder...
anyway, it's really bittersweet leaving the company.. there were great colleagues, fun times, of coz, bad times too.. but, everything always worked out well in the end.. or maybe only from my point of view.. But i'll always have a rather fond memory of my first full time job.. hee.. once an eurekian, always an eurekian.. haha..
now, i need to plan my next step in life.. cat isn't young anymore.. cannot keep fooling around.. must really find a job that i can excel and make progress in my career path.. sad thing is, up till now, I still don't know what kind of life i want, i also have no idea what i excel in.. all i know is that i won't be able to stand working in a job that i'll have to sit in the office the whole day.. i'll be bored to death.....
ultimately, i think i'm still more cut out for events and stuff that requires me to move around. I seriously don't mind long hours, moving around alot etc.. anyone wanna hire a jobless cat???
Signing off,
jobless and broke cat..
Hell week was last week, and juz as i predicted, i really did not meet TSO for the whole week till Sat morn.. what a week... there wasn't a day that i left office before 12 midnight.. tues at 12-ish, wed 1-ish, thurs 3am, fri 1-ish, sat also 12-ish.. and SUNDAY!!! whoa.. D-Day.. i'm so glad it's all over.. and the best thing is, on tues, i still had no idea when my last day was, and after the office accountant checked with the Boss, suddenly, my last day was that day.. WTF lo... didn't even haf time to pack up and handover things properly... sighz...
18 months in Eureka.. so many ppl came and left.. I've seen ppl who work for one day, and not turn up the next day, sigh.. the bosses should be more appreciative of the ppl who are willing to stay on for so long.. lol... i rem during my fifth month in the company, me and an intern was calculating the ppl who have came and left.. It added up to an average turnover of 3 pax per month.. i've seriously lost count of the ppl who worked less than a month.. why i wonder...
anyway, it's really bittersweet leaving the company.. there were great colleagues, fun times, of coz, bad times too.. but, everything always worked out well in the end.. or maybe only from my point of view.. But i'll always have a rather fond memory of my first full time job.. hee.. once an eurekian, always an eurekian.. haha..
now, i need to plan my next step in life.. cat isn't young anymore.. cannot keep fooling around.. must really find a job that i can excel and make progress in my career path.. sad thing is, up till now, I still don't know what kind of life i want, i also have no idea what i excel in.. all i know is that i won't be able to stand working in a job that i'll have to sit in the office the whole day.. i'll be bored to death.....
ultimately, i think i'm still more cut out for events and stuff that requires me to move around. I seriously don't mind long hours, moving around alot etc.. anyone wanna hire a jobless cat???
Signing off,
jobless and broke cat..
Monday, 10 August 2009
Long Long Weekend
National Day Long Weekend.. woohoo.. after 3 months without public hols.. this is a great thing that happened.. lol..
had a rather fulfilling (aka fun-filling) weekend, from a cat's point of view.. KTV wif colleagues n TSO(the sweet one) on Fri (still waiting for photos), out wif TSO on sat, + managed to get something wrgds to work done and settled, then mj.. Sun was NDP Day, Ericia managed to sign us into her office to watch a spectacular view of the fireworks.. sadly though, it was really quite short this year.. Cia, stay longer at your job, next year we go watch again.. lol.. or we can do the New Year, CNY, and any other fireworks worthy event.. hahaha..
Right now lazing @ hm with TSO, waiting for time to come.. CHOMP CHOMP.. hehe.. this cat has a stingray craving.. haha. fish.. hahahahaha...
and then, sobering thoughts flashes thru.. hell week coming... probably will be too busy to meet TSO for the rest of the week... sighz... but what Tian Tian said is true also.. 'CHEONG for the last time, make sure everything sui sui, go also happy, no regrets.'
ok.. CAT.. Jia you! YEA.. sighz..
Signing off,
Escaping from Reality Cat.
had a rather fulfilling (aka fun-filling) weekend, from a cat's point of view.. KTV wif colleagues n TSO(the sweet one) on Fri (still waiting for photos), out wif TSO on sat, + managed to get something wrgds to work done and settled, then mj.. Sun was NDP Day, Ericia managed to sign us into her office to watch a spectacular view of the fireworks.. sadly though, it was really quite short this year.. Cia, stay longer at your job, next year we go watch again.. lol.. or we can do the New Year, CNY, and any other fireworks worthy event.. hahaha..
Right now lazing @ hm with TSO, waiting for time to come.. CHOMP CHOMP.. hehe.. this cat has a stingray craving.. haha. fish.. hahahahaha...
and then, sobering thoughts flashes thru.. hell week coming... probably will be too busy to meet TSO for the rest of the week... sighz... but what Tian Tian said is true also.. 'CHEONG for the last time, make sure everything sui sui, go also happy, no regrets.'
ok.. CAT.. Jia you! YEA.. sighz..
Signing off,
Escaping from Reality Cat.
Thursday, 6 August 2009
Tired Cat
sigh.. work never seems to end and life keeps moving on.. pretty soon i'll turn 25.. ooohhh...
Anyway, i'm tired.. waking up too early, sleeping too late.. always a problem.. sleep.. perpertual lack of sleep.. yet, when i get to sleep, i sleep too much and i end up feeling groggy the rest of the day.. it's those times that i feel i wasted a weekend.. and in my lne of work, weekends with nothing on is rare and has to be treasured...
anyway, this cat woke up at 6am today, and has to wake up at 5.15am tmr.. wat a lousy life..
sighz..
off to bed..
Sleepy sleepy cat..
Anyway, i'm tired.. waking up too early, sleeping too late.. always a problem.. sleep.. perpertual lack of sleep.. yet, when i get to sleep, i sleep too much and i end up feeling groggy the rest of the day.. it's those times that i feel i wasted a weekend.. and in my lne of work, weekends with nothing on is rare and has to be treasured...
anyway, this cat woke up at 6am today, and has to wake up at 5.15am tmr.. wat a lousy life..
sighz..
off to bed..
Sleepy sleepy cat..
Monday, 3 August 2009
Mewings of a Cat
Cat has decided to start over her life, as much as she can.. means new job, new relationships, new thinking etc.
The main reason for starting anew is to let the past fade away with time, and in order not to let one dwell in the past, one needs to move on.
In the past year, i've finally learnt to let go of a few things, and with that, I think I've grown stronger, a little wiser and happier.
Right now, I've entered a new relationship and am happy. Though there are still times when memories of past relationships still clouds the mind, and things are not as smooth sailing as it should be, I feel I will always have the courage to move on cause I know I have the support of my family and friends.
Of course, not to forget my boyfriend. i am grateful to whichever gods up there who is watching over me.. Thank you for bringing him into my life and shining light on a life that I hate. It is him who helped me gain courage to move on, and also to know that in order to get a move in life, one has to move first. instead of hanging on and refusing to let go of something, it is better to just let go.. the fall is only a few inches, and not a few metres as I feared.
I have officially tendered my resignation 2 weeks ago, and in around another 2 weeks time, I will be back to being unemployed. Bad timing, but it really is time to move on and start on a career path that will actually have better prospects.
If not for the fact that I know I have the support of people I love and who loves me, I will not be able to take this step, this big leap into the unknown. I have no idea when I can get a new job, and many things are murky.
All I know and need now is the support from my loved ones.. n i really feel blessed that I am able to find someone who loves me as much as I love him, if not more.. I've a dark past, and my future doesn't seem bright right now as well, yet he's still able to love me even during my darkest moments.
Sweets, thank you..
The main reason for starting anew is to let the past fade away with time, and in order not to let one dwell in the past, one needs to move on.
In the past year, i've finally learnt to let go of a few things, and with that, I think I've grown stronger, a little wiser and happier.
Right now, I've entered a new relationship and am happy. Though there are still times when memories of past relationships still clouds the mind, and things are not as smooth sailing as it should be, I feel I will always have the courage to move on cause I know I have the support of my family and friends.
Of course, not to forget my boyfriend. i am grateful to whichever gods up there who is watching over me.. Thank you for bringing him into my life and shining light on a life that I hate. It is him who helped me gain courage to move on, and also to know that in order to get a move in life, one has to move first. instead of hanging on and refusing to let go of something, it is better to just let go.. the fall is only a few inches, and not a few metres as I feared.
I have officially tendered my resignation 2 weeks ago, and in around another 2 weeks time, I will be back to being unemployed. Bad timing, but it really is time to move on and start on a career path that will actually have better prospects.
If not for the fact that I know I have the support of people I love and who loves me, I will not be able to take this step, this big leap into the unknown. I have no idea when I can get a new job, and many things are murky.
All I know and need now is the support from my loved ones.. n i really feel blessed that I am able to find someone who loves me as much as I love him, if not more.. I've a dark past, and my future doesn't seem bright right now as well, yet he's still able to love me even during my darkest moments.
Sweets, thank you..
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