one of the worst mondays to date

today is thoroughly miserable.. i dunno y too..

first thing i did on a monday is to send my bf off to the airport at 12mn. 2 weeks of not seeing him. maybe if such a thing happen in future i'd be quite happy.. but right now, i hate the feeling of being apart.

then i had a bad night. fell aslp at 2am, had a series of weird dreams, woke up at 4am. tso supposed to sms me when he board the plane, but i didn't receive anything. started to haf funny thoughts that went wild. when i fell aslp at 4plus am, it was a continuation of a series of weird dreams. went on all the way till 7plus when it was time for me to wake up.

7 plus.. and still no news frm the bf.. started to feel worried.. the first thing i did when i reached office was to scan the news of any plane disasters in the TW vicinity.. silly, but like i said, i have an overactive imagination.

n then start work. at 10am, the ED (exec director, head honcho of the staff in CCF), started discussing some stuff with colleagues.. loud, abrasive, sharp tones.. how to work.. making the whole office noisy, unpeaceful.. (juz wat we need on a monday morn that's miserable enuff)

had a thoroughly dissatisfying lunch, couldn't finish my food. finally heard frm the bf at 2 plus, n set my mind at ease a little, but the missing of him increased twofold..

left alone in my little world until 4plus when the ED called me. suddenly i have to redo the WHOLE FUCKING BUDGET of the event which was already approved simply coz the mgmt comm ppl (whom my head honcho answers to, n she therefore leaps to their every word) said so.

juz when i thot that i was gonna finally crawl thru monday, this kind of bomb comes crashing down on me... as if i dun haf enuff to worry abt.. why muz i rehash something that was fixed earlier?

i farkin hate my job!

N GUESS WAT!! THE DAY IS TECHNICALLY NOT OVER YET!!! i juz wan find a cave n hide n feel sorry for myself