Thursday, 28 January 2010

Stress...

If Hair for Hope 2010 falls through this year, it'll all be MY FAULT!!!

Tuesday, 19 January 2010

Cat

I need to rearrange my life. I've a bad habit of sticking to much to a new boyfriend at the start of a new r/s, and i'll manage to cram about a year or 2's happiness, 'honeymoon' period in 6 months.. no wonder all my honeymoon periods are short-lived..

anyway, all this sticking to the boyfriend is also pissing each other off as we can't stand each other for too long a period after all.. Dunno what will happen if we do get married.. probably we should get jobs where travelling is needed every few weeks.. at least that way we're sure we will have breathing space.. haha.. that is if we do end up together..

argued rather often recently. n he told me maybe i shouldn't be so nice to him. i thought i was too nice to him too. why should i be the one giving in everytime we have an arguement? whether or not it's my fault, i'm giving in. just to stop the black faces, the silence between us. so many times i just wanted to shout at him, but of coz, shouting will not solve a thing. make him more stubborn only. but why is it that he can't try to see things from my point of view? whether or not he can understand is one thing, but does he even try?

anyway, this post not supposed to be about him.. haha..

Cat is gonna rearrange her life.. haha....... but still thinking of what to do to rearrange it..

Monday, 4 January 2010

他是我活了将近25 年找到的伴侣。
虽然在一起的时间尚浅, 但在一起时总有一种说不出的亲切和舒适。
他和我比起来,上进得多(虽然也带有点惰性),处事待人也比我圆滑。
年纪和我相差只不过1岁,但感觉起来,生活经验却比我丰富的多。

跟他在一起,想象不到未来会带来什么,生活会如何,但总觉得是件好事。 在以前的感情里,总会想到未来,而想象中的未来都是满可怕的,所以,想象不到或许代表着会是一个更好的将来。

当然,吵架, 斗嘴,意见不和也常会发生,毕竟两人的生活习惯和成长的经历与过程所造成的思想是截然不同的。
最重要的是能够互相体谅。 与其默默承受不满,不如尽量心平气和地讨论,了解彼此的思想,也不是一定要对方认同,但知道对方心里怎么想,或许将来所说的话,做的决定,都能够把对方的心思也考虑在内才做出决定。

他的思想非常男性化,一切都以逻辑作为标本,完全不能了解为何女生在某些事情的处事方法会那么毫无逻辑,完全是感情用事。这也因此搞得我们吵了几次。他,就一直追问我为什么会作出那种决定,而我,一直没法回答。
女人嘛,偶尔就是感情用事,所作出的决定是靠感觉, 说也说不清。 男人,有时候是不会明白的。

有时候,我也不明白他到底怎么想,也经常会觉得他把朋友看得比我重要。
这大概就是女人所缺乏的安全感吧。多陪他做一些他喜欢做的事,接触新事物也好,反正又不会少了一块肉什么的。能够一起做一些大家都会开心的事,也能促进感情。

他也蛮疼我的,虽然两人的脾气都是倔强的。
带有一点大男人主意的他,也不太会让我。但至少,我知道他有在努力。
反正,我的认识有那么一点的犯践,对我太好,我反而会觉得那个人没骨气。偶尔让一让我,让我感觉他 是在呼我,但又不让我太野蛮, 我觉得他似乎是做得满恰当的。

女人嘛,最终也是嫁鸡随鸡,嫁狗随狗,而我也嫁猪随猪咯。

他,是王永安。他是我的。而我,也是他的。