pregnant woes

I heard of the birth process and stuff.. I never knew that prior to that the joints around the groin area will start to loosen to prep for birth. The achy pain is such that I wake up everytime I turn in bed. Its hurts to get in and out of car. Heck, it even hurts when I sit down and stand up. And when I walk. 

The worst part is when the gynae says, "there's nothing we can do about it."

On top of my tendon injury, when will my lower body feel normal again?

making sense

My husband so annoys me at times. Esp now that I'm pregnant. His explanation of things is probably clear to him in his mind, but it doesn't get to me the way he wants it to. So I said I don't understand. He just went "wa, ur preg brain really bring u to a new level of stupid".

So, it's never him who didn't explain it clearly, but my brain that didn't understand. You will never win an argument like that. Irritating and annoying. Aarghhhhh

 

And yeah, it's always I didn't explain properly, never his brain cannot understand. 

elusive good night's rest

Having problems with my pillow recently. It's getting bad enuff that I woke up with a headache the past week. Am very tempted to go test n buy a Tempur pillow. The only thing holding me back is the abhorrent price. A tempur pillow costs on average SGD$200+. Sadly, much as I would like it to be, this Cat ain't made of money. 

Every night is a gamble now. Will I sleep well tonight? 

I wonder will I get the funds if I start a Gofundme for a tempur pillow.. 

life of being unvaccinated

When 1 is unvaccinated in SG right now, u seem to be ostracised. In order to get a 24hr free pass yst, I had to spend $62 and even had to debate with the doc on why I can't be vaccinated as yet. That calls for a different story on different day. 

Anyways, why did I need the free pass? I wanted to watch a movie n have dinner with friends at a restaurant. 

Thus, the $62 was spent (think I need to find somewhere less costly) 

To fully make my $62 worth it, we went for a Goldclass movie, had dinner at HDL, and to fully utilise it, made the husband go mcdonalds with me in the morning. Wanted to go for a proper brunch, but we were racing against time n decided on the nearest place. Thus McDonalds.

Lesson learnt, time it properly in future to fully maximise 24hrs. Lol. 

Can't wait to be vaccinated. 

911

today marks 20 years since 911. I can't say it has affected me directly, juz the aftermath which affected millions of ppl around the world n altered the aviation industry entirely.
I remember the disbelief when I heard it (was working at my mum's stall in market when someone came n told us "USA going to war"). Totally thought he was exaggerating. Which he was at that point, but turns out his "prophecy" came true.
Then started watching news updates on TV n the scenes were horrible to watch. People jumping off 100s of floor in desperation, fires, buildings crumbling. 

As the stories began to come together,  you can't help but admire the bravery of some people. I'm sure there were more stories of cowardice, but I think the first instinct of humans is self-preservation, so u can't really blame some of them. 

Which suddenly brought me to think. What if 911 happened 10-20 years later, with the current Gen Z n Gen A people as grownups? Open ended qn but one can't help but wonder. The generation that went thru 911 were the boomers n Gen X-ers. One's gotta admit that their generation were tougher n more resilient. 

Oh well, juz my own thoughts and wondering early in the morn cos my husband kicked me in his dream n woke me up. Lol

full of gas

too much gas somehow. I think if it goes on my ears may start to help release the gas in my body too.. #maystartfloatingaway

良心很累

Recently a friend used '有良心 就会celebrate  her bday with her' jokingly. My reply was '我的良心很累。' wasnt able to make it cos i had to work. 

juz capturing it cos i thought its pretty witty. 

Juz like me. 

greatest fear

When i was younger, my greatest fear was bad results, no boyfriend, bad decisions in life etc.. 

Now i realise, my single greatest fear that i can never get over is losing my parents. I can't  even begin to imagine what it'd be like losing them.. 💔

Yet, it's inevitable. I just hope it is as delayed as possible.. there's lotsa stuff I've yet to do with my parents.. 

lousy friend

cat is so busy again. new stall open at tampines hub n cat is back to 13-14 hour days, n 6 days a week. so tiring.. can feel not as able to tahan as compared to juz 3-4 years back.. 

as such, cat hasn't been keeping up with frens, not even replying WhatsApp much..  what a lousy friend.. :(  please miss me! My friends, u guys are still in my heart n mind. please come visit me if free.. cat got new carrot cake skill. come try!!! good night

bo gay jiak taogay

3/3/2021

day i extracted my first adult tooth. n one more to go. sense of loss n yet with relief. had the pain keeping me awake past couple of nights n couldn't eat well. 

if i had visted my dentist more diligently this could've been delayed, but i believe i would still have lost the tooth sooner or later. it was inevitable. so easy to remove that it didnt even cost much. 

my biggest regret now is, why didn't i eat lunch beforehand!!!

needle life

after failed 2nd round of ivf, decided to do some '调养' of my body via TCM. N guess wat.. treatment plan -- Acupuncture. 8 acupoints per treatment for 40min weekly. 逃不过的针。lol making up for the fact that i rarely got jabs as a kid? overcompensating. maybe inshould name future kid 王杜祯. poke needle. hahahha my kid will hate me