starting afresh

cat gonna start new job.. new line, new life.. maybe should change a bf to make it a whole new start?? lol..

1 year plus into the r/s.. i see improvements and more compromising from both sides, though i feel i'm compromising more, i get the idea that the bf thinks otherwise..

i hate the way he skirts certain issues, doesn't seem to appreciate me enough, making me feel that all that i've done for him and all the sacrifices i made for him are wasted. all i want is appreciation and at least acknowledgement that i have done what i have done. now it seems it's what i should have done and he's taking it for granted. i hate that.

i know we're not supposed to 'gei kao' who has done what for whom, but.. if i feel so one-sided, there's like nothing much to compare.

i know i'm too nice to him, some feel that it's not worth it, he doesn't seem to appreciate. but it's in me to be nice to smone i love. and i can't just stop loving that person. i'm disappointed, more in myself though. y can't i take a firmer stand.

cat's a pushover in love matters...