Funny.. wanted to blog, but when i am at the page, i have nothing to write.. My life is that boring now.. All that revolves around me now is, where the heck am i gonna find enough money to survive till i get a job.. and.. when the heck am i gonna find a job??
又不是我不要作工。。
也不是没努力地找。。
能做的都作了。不懂我到底出了什么问题。。
一生什么成就都没有，拿了个大学文凭，有个屁用。
都不知道人活在这世上是为了什么。
难道真的是象我爸在我13岁时跟我说的那样，‘人生下来就是长大、上学、出去社会工作、找个伴侣、结婚、生子、继续做工、把孩子养大成人、老了、等死。’
似乎毫无意义的人生。
hmm.. i realise i have a very pessimistic outlook on life.. sighz..
Wednesday, 30 September 2009
Saturday, 26 September 2009
25 yrs and 1 day old
小猫长大咯！！
与安仔度过了生日的那一天。虽然并没什么盛大的庆祝，但，平平淡淡的在一起，陪伴着对方，就算是在享受二人世界吧！感觉也蛮温馨的。。
他其实也有准备了一些小小的惊喜给我。订了一束玫瑰花，并叫人送来我家，还写了一张生日卡，和礼物。虽然这些对很多女生来说，或许是基本条件，对我而言，已撮撮有余。恋爱嘛。。也不想做到电影剧情里那么惊天动地。两人在一起，最重要是感觉舒服，体谅对方。 我才不要在那种平日就吵吵闹闹，或不理不睬的感情，只有到了特别日子才来做戏给对方，给朋友看。
我想我的要求还算简单。。我只需要对方记得我的生日，做一个小小的表现，例如，一个小小的礼物，甚至只是两人一起简简单单的吃一顿晚餐，我也会满促了。。就重要是知道你在他心里是重要，而他是重视你的。
这只猫也算经历了几段感情，当中获益不潜。。只希望不会重蹈覆辙，不再犯以前所犯过的错误。。我不会搞浪漫，也不会说甜言蜜语。我深信，真正的浪漫，是发自内心的。你会为了要对方开心而做，看到他/她灿烂的笑容，就会知道一切都是值得的。。
安仔，谢谢。我昨晚是笑着入眠的。。
与安仔度过了生日的那一天。虽然并没什么盛大的庆祝，但，平平淡淡的在一起，陪伴着对方，就算是在享受二人世界吧！感觉也蛮温馨的。。
他其实也有准备了一些小小的惊喜给我。订了一束玫瑰花，并叫人送来我家，还写了一张生日卡，和礼物。虽然这些对很多女生来说，或许是基本条件，对我而言，已撮撮有余。恋爱嘛。。也不想做到电影剧情里那么惊天动地。两人在一起，最重要是感觉舒服，体谅对方。 我才不要在那种平日就吵吵闹闹，或不理不睬的感情，只有到了特别日子才来做戏给对方，给朋友看。
我想我的要求还算简单。。我只需要对方记得我的生日，做一个小小的表现，例如，一个小小的礼物，甚至只是两人一起简简单单的吃一顿晚餐，我也会满促了。。就重要是知道你在他心里是重要，而他是重视你的。
这只猫也算经历了几段感情，当中获益不潜。。只希望不会重蹈覆辙，不再犯以前所犯过的错误。。我不会搞浪漫，也不会说甜言蜜语。我深信，真正的浪漫，是发自内心的。你会为了要对方开心而做，看到他/她灿烂的笑容，就会知道一切都是值得的。。
安仔，谢谢。我昨晚是笑着入眠的。。
Thursday, 24 September 2009
Too bored..
Cat is too bored.. way too bored.. she needs a job like NOW!!
but.. since i'm so bored.. i decided to make a list of how mean my bf is to me.. hahahahha....
actually, i know he dotes on me in his own way.. but dunno wat's wrong with me.. i always feel insecure.. i think i lack confidence in relationships.. n the bad thing is, my insecurity kinds of spills over to him too.. i'm also afraid that i will start to take things for granted, and take him for granted..
hmm... wat should i do with my life?? aimless....
but.. since i'm so bored.. i decided to make a list of how mean my bf is to me.. hahahahha....
- he's damn good at acting deaf.... esp when it comes to things he doesn't want to commit..
- he's more stubborn than me... i can't win him in arguments.... *dammit*.. smtimes i juz wanna win for the sake of winning.. he juz won't give in.. irritating......
- he ain't good at the romantic stuff.. eniwei.. i ain't good at it too.. thank god i'm not very for those extreme romance thingy..
- he often don't bother to inform me of his whereabouts.. not caring if i will feel worried or not.. sigh...
- can't think of anymore for now.. hahahhaha
actually, i know he dotes on me in his own way.. but dunno wat's wrong with me.. i always feel insecure.. i think i lack confidence in relationships.. n the bad thing is, my insecurity kinds of spills over to him too.. i'm also afraid that i will start to take things for granted, and take him for granted..
hmm... wat should i do with my life?? aimless....
Tuesday, 22 September 2009
Healthy Lifestyle
Thanks Michelle. I stole the pic from ur blog.. hee..Been leading a healthy lifestyle the past 2 weekends.. haha.. played badminton last week wif TSO, Michelle and TL.. went again yst with TSO, my Dai Gor and his GF.. haha.. Feeling the ache on my right side now.. I have no idea why is it that everytime I play badminton, only my right side of the body will ache.. I mean the whole of my right side, right from my shoulders to my leg.. I think my right side o my body is gonna be more toned than my left..
Just a side note, I'm turning 25 soon.. i feel so upset with myself.. 25 and 一事无成.. i've lived a quarter of a century with nothing to my name but failed relationships, lousy jobs, one bad decision after another..
Sigh.. but thank god for small doses of luck at times too.. I also have a bunch of great friends, a 'loving' family (well.. if sacarsm towards each other is a form of love), and I finally found a great guy.. Let's hope he remains great.. hahahaha..
All I want for my birthday is a job.. not juz any job.. the JOB.. at YOG.. haha... make it my birthday present!!!
Friday, 18 September 2009
Cat the Manpower
Was working part time wif Eureka as mpw the past couple of days at an HPB event.. good thing was, i know most of wat i'm doing. bad thing is, i'm getting manpower pay and doing coordinator job.. lol... n i think the new staff not v happy coz i'm a manpower, and i'm actually telling them wat to do... hahahhaha.... i wouldn't be happy if i were them too... but at this point, this manpower is still gonna be more 'qiang' than a newcomer who hasn't even been there more than a month...
haha.. anyway, event was at SGH, to promote healthy living to children. so a few different schools signed up and brought their students here.. on the second day, a boy from one of the schools, proposed to me.. lol...
he's 12 years old, and has mild Down's Syndrome. Kept giving me 'flying kisses', and i ignored him most of the time, but when he had a chance to talk to me, he asked me, 'Can I marry you?'...... All the ppl who knew had a good laugh at my expense lor....
But, that brings to another point, kind of spoke to the teacher (who was quite hot, i like the shape of his back), and he mentioned that it's not a good behaviour for people with DS (Down's Syndrome) as it is a behaviour of extreme obsession.. and as they don't have a clear idea of what is right and wrong, they tend to express themselves without control or limit. for e.g. they will just lift up a girl's skirt and see what's underneath in public coz they'll feel that it's ok, and they want to satisfy their own curiousity.
i can understand, i only encounter him for the 2.5 hrs that they're there, wat if it's someone he has more daily contact with.. it will make him worse i feel...
on a totally different note, Cat went for interview for YOG.. I seriously hope i get the job.... it'll be something i'm good at, event coordination.. and com'on, it's for YOG... how many ppl gonna haf a chance to do it.. juz think about it.. Singapore will nvr haf a chance to hold the Olympic Games, we're juz too small a little piece of grass to be able to hold so many ppl who will be coming.. if we do hold it, the govt probably will have to ask half the citizens to go overseas while the foreigners come and rent our houses for that couple of weeks.. lol..
anyway, back on track, YOG is probably the closest thing to Olympics that we can do.. sigh.. i need a freakin job... if YOG dun wan me, i MAY go for Outward Bound School... i cannot juz sit in office whole day that kind.. i feel very lethargic.... sighz.. but active jobs that requires u to run around = low pay OR sales job. i'm not that suitable for sales, so, it'll be low pay.. lol...
I know.. who wants a cute Chauffeur who can drive quite well?? i'm available..
haha.. anyway, event was at SGH, to promote healthy living to children. so a few different schools signed up and brought their students here.. on the second day, a boy from one of the schools, proposed to me.. lol...
he's 12 years old, and has mild Down's Syndrome. Kept giving me 'flying kisses', and i ignored him most of the time, but when he had a chance to talk to me, he asked me, 'Can I marry you?'...... All the ppl who knew had a good laugh at my expense lor....
But, that brings to another point, kind of spoke to the teacher (who was quite hot, i like the shape of his back), and he mentioned that it's not a good behaviour for people with DS (Down's Syndrome) as it is a behaviour of extreme obsession.. and as they don't have a clear idea of what is right and wrong, they tend to express themselves without control or limit. for e.g. they will just lift up a girl's skirt and see what's underneath in public coz they'll feel that it's ok, and they want to satisfy their own curiousity.
i can understand, i only encounter him for the 2.5 hrs that they're there, wat if it's someone he has more daily contact with.. it will make him worse i feel...
on a totally different note, Cat went for interview for YOG.. I seriously hope i get the job.... it'll be something i'm good at, event coordination.. and com'on, it's for YOG... how many ppl gonna haf a chance to do it.. juz think about it.. Singapore will nvr haf a chance to hold the Olympic Games, we're juz too small a little piece of grass to be able to hold so many ppl who will be coming.. if we do hold it, the govt probably will have to ask half the citizens to go overseas while the foreigners come and rent our houses for that couple of weeks.. lol..
anyway, back on track, YOG is probably the closest thing to Olympics that we can do.. sigh.. i need a freakin job... if YOG dun wan me, i MAY go for Outward Bound School... i cannot juz sit in office whole day that kind.. i feel very lethargic.... sighz.. but active jobs that requires u to run around = low pay OR sales job. i'm not that suitable for sales, so, it'll be low pay.. lol...
I know.. who wants a cute Chauffeur who can drive quite well?? i'm available..
Wednesday, 9 September 2009
How.. I'm Still Jobless
sigh.. been almost a month since i left eureka.. still looking for a job... desperate to the point that i'm being a manpower for the pittance of a sum that eureka pays.. lol..
anyway, played Cashflow game with TSO, Michele & Mike last weekend.. cat was an engineer.. and she couldn't get out of the rat race.. i sincerely hope it's not a reflection of life.. hahahaha.. but, i can count on TSO.. hahahah... he won the game!! actually, Cashflow is a fun game.. dun mind playing a few more times.. but takes a long time to play.. about 2-3 hours.. but.. since mich spent $300 on it, i shall endeavour to make it worth her money..
1st things 1st, i need to get a job... im dying of boredom, and soon i'll die of starvation.. coz i ain't got money..
happened to talk to dave online today.. he asked me if i wanted to work for him.. should i? not that i have anymore feelings for him.. but.. 'duo yi shi bu ru shao yi shi'.. should juz avoid any possibility of misunderstandings rite? anyway, i'll think damn hard, coz his job is on commission basis.. imagine i got no sales.. i eat air for that month...
SHOW ME THE MONEY!!! hahahahha
anyway, played Cashflow game with TSO, Michele & Mike last weekend.. cat was an engineer.. and she couldn't get out of the rat race.. i sincerely hope it's not a reflection of life.. hahahaha.. but, i can count on TSO.. hahahah... he won the game!! actually, Cashflow is a fun game.. dun mind playing a few more times.. but takes a long time to play.. about 2-3 hours.. but.. since mich spent $300 on it, i shall endeavour to make it worth her money..
1st things 1st, i need to get a job... im dying of boredom, and soon i'll die of starvation.. coz i ain't got money..
happened to talk to dave online today.. he asked me if i wanted to work for him.. should i? not that i have anymore feelings for him.. but.. 'duo yi shi bu ru shao yi shi'.. should juz avoid any possibility of misunderstandings rite? anyway, i'll think damn hard, coz his job is on commission basis.. imagine i got no sales.. i eat air for that month...
SHOW ME THE MONEY!!! hahahahha
Tuesday, 8 September 2009
all about cats and pigs..
hmmz... together wif TSO for a month plus.. of coz, we're still happily in the honeymoon period, but of coz there are some differences already..
hmm.. we both are super stubborn ppl.. n most times we refuse to budge from our stance.. guess who has to give in to the other in the end?
In a r/s, there must always be a balance.. i realised that in my previous 2 r/s, there wasn't any balance at all.. the first one, i was the one who always gives in, letting myself get bullied, and in the 2nd one, it was the other way round.. i seriously hope i will learn from both rs and learn to strike a balance with this relationship.. give and take..
Plus we both have very different ways of thinking, and ways of handling things.. it really added to alot of problems.. he'd rather drop a subject and not talk about it anymore if we can't see things in the same light, but my style is to talk about it so that we know each other's point of view.. I would like him to understand where i'm coming from, and why i think that way.. of coz.. smtimes it's not possible to explain cos this cat does like to do illogical things at times.. but TSO is a super logical person and he isn't able to understand why i will do things so out of the norm.. actually, sometimes i also dunno.. hahaha..
other than that, i'm perfectly happy in this relationship.. I remember ever telling michelle (our matchmaker) this:
"Yong an is a guy i can fall in love with."
Guess wat.. The statement has come true..
Watched the movie 'Hitch' by Will Smith last time.. there was one quote in the movie that I couldn't forget. Will Smith was teaching the guy how to kiss a girl properly, and the statement he made was something like:
"Remember, this could be her last first kiss."
I think it's damn meaningful.. and I hope I have given my last first kiss to TSO.
Yup. I love him and i'm proud to admit it..
hmm.. we both are super stubborn ppl.. n most times we refuse to budge from our stance.. guess who has to give in to the other in the end?
In a r/s, there must always be a balance.. i realised that in my previous 2 r/s, there wasn't any balance at all.. the first one, i was the one who always gives in, letting myself get bullied, and in the 2nd one, it was the other way round.. i seriously hope i will learn from both rs and learn to strike a balance with this relationship.. give and take..
Plus we both have very different ways of thinking, and ways of handling things.. it really added to alot of problems.. he'd rather drop a subject and not talk about it anymore if we can't see things in the same light, but my style is to talk about it so that we know each other's point of view.. I would like him to understand where i'm coming from, and why i think that way.. of coz.. smtimes it's not possible to explain cos this cat does like to do illogical things at times.. but TSO is a super logical person and he isn't able to understand why i will do things so out of the norm.. actually, sometimes i also dunno.. hahaha..
other than that, i'm perfectly happy in this relationship.. I remember ever telling michelle (our matchmaker) this:
"Yong an is a guy i can fall in love with."
Guess wat.. The statement has come true..
Watched the movie 'Hitch' by Will Smith last time.. there was one quote in the movie that I couldn't forget. Will Smith was teaching the guy how to kiss a girl properly, and the statement he made was something like:
"Remember, this could be her last first kiss."
I think it's damn meaningful.. and I hope I have given my last first kiss to TSO.
Yup. I love him and i'm proud to admit it..
Friday, 4 September 2009
Cat's Personality
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. (can't be.. i hated lessons)The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you. (yup.. esp financial freedom)Who is your true self:
You are mature (sure not??), reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.Tuesday, 1 September 2009
Bored
Sigh.. this cat needs a job badly.. 3rd week into slacking and i'm feeling bored like nothing.. i think i'm destined for a slogging life.. haha.. let me nua for awhile n i start feeling all sorts of sickness and stuff.. in the short 2 weeks, cat has suffered from insomnia twice.. never happened when i was working...
Now that my bro is back, I haf no more car.. sigh.. cat is back to the life of being car-less.. haha.. thus cat is stuck at home today.. and the rain.. sighz.. should haf juz rained last nite.. sigh... now cat looks forward to the weekends only coz my frens will not be working, so i can happily go out wif them.. hahaha...
rained on sun.. wanted to go beach.. in the end, we spent a couple of hours at tangs vivo tryin to use up michelle's vouchers, cat 'bought' a pair of socks.. haha.. but i had a good weekend la.. sat was abit of slacking with the bf.. then went to watch Mayday Concert which lasted well after midnight.. then went to find TSO and watched soccer with him n his fren.. haha.. too free.. lol.. got hm, slept, woke up, started raining, so went to pick TSO, Mich, BX and Rowena up... thus the shopping.. then went singing, eat, and home.. haha..
had some worrying thoughts on and off.. but, well.. what will come will come.. now.. juz gonna continue slacking, and maybe a movie wif TSO tonight.. hehe..
cat has no life.. to the point she has nothing to blog about.. hahaha
Now that my bro is back, I haf no more car.. sigh.. cat is back to the life of being car-less.. haha.. thus cat is stuck at home today.. and the rain.. sighz.. should haf juz rained last nite.. sigh... now cat looks forward to the weekends only coz my frens will not be working, so i can happily go out wif them.. hahaha...
rained on sun.. wanted to go beach.. in the end, we spent a couple of hours at tangs vivo tryin to use up michelle's vouchers, cat 'bought' a pair of socks.. haha.. but i had a good weekend la.. sat was abit of slacking with the bf.. then went to watch Mayday Concert which lasted well after midnight.. then went to find TSO and watched soccer with him n his fren.. haha.. too free.. lol.. got hm, slept, woke up, started raining, so went to pick TSO, Mich, BX and Rowena up... thus the shopping.. then went singing, eat, and home.. haha..
had some worrying thoughts on and off.. but, well.. what will come will come.. now.. juz gonna continue slacking, and maybe a movie wif TSO tonight.. hehe..
cat has no life.. to the point she has nothing to blog about.. hahaha
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